Distraught

My soul quivers in the cold
Alone
Looking not for help
But company
Fellowship……….. Among equals
For the extraordinary
For saints among men

I fail to see , understand
or Accept
The essence of my fellow man
I fail to understand
The inadequacies of me
Of human –humanity
Of mis-matched affections
Of over paying relationships
Under fertilized Dependencies

I look not today
At your face, my friend.
I look at your knees
Because in expecting I have sinned against
Who you are

I stand alone …..now..unexpectant
My heart unable to bear
the loneliness that fills it
I cry tearless ……………..

Faye