Today

Its strange how crazy unattainable beauty can make one ...
Reminds me of wanting my sisters toys
When I was a child
Ah! Childhood
Those blissful,
Guiltless days...
That allow you to be who you are
And want what was not yours

Ah, youth
With your raging wildness
Smooth sailing on choppy waters
Choppy sailing on smooth waters
Cigarettes
And cheap beer
Bad food and good company

Ah! life
My history being written
Today for tomorrow
Ah! my today
My yesterday’s tomorrow
I’ll live for you .

Faye 19/07/05

I cease to be.

There was a moon tonight.........pale bright....
It stood in solidarity ..against a deep black sky.
Did you see it ?
My white flag
My surrender.
My deliverance

I now float …..
A cloud on a summer’s day
A lone snow flake…..
Purposeless and alone……..
I want
Neither the answers
Nor your questions

I want nothing….
I seek not to be found.

I fade into the backgrounds of history
I was
I cease to be.